~ On Betrayal and Childishness: ~

Wednesday, June 18, 2008


my dearest ladies,

here's a post about my brother, who recently got embroiled in CCA politics, which I personally deem as seriously unnecessary- a necessary "mountain out of molehill" matter. XD

I wouldn't really go much into the details, because I respect the privacy of his and his other "friends" and "fiends", what you call it, seriously don't matter. All I've got to say is both my brother and his BF/F (Best Friends/Fiends hahaha) have contributed to the immense unhappiness and anger that have accumulated over this short period.

Betrayal, gossip, lack of trustworthiness, insensitivity, and most importantly, the RELUCTANCE to be FORTHCOMING and HONEST among the CCA "elite" members have led to the current miserable state of politics in the CCA.

I've heard the possibility of a coup to overthrow the current elite, and it seems the elite have planned to meet up with the revolutionaries to discuss the possibility of cooperating, or at the very least, a detente perhaps?

I've never stopped believing in the phrase that it takes 2 hands to clap. In the case of my brother's, both parties, elite and revolutionaries, have did some things that made the other party unhappy. But the point that IRKED me really, even to the point of disappointment, was the fact that none stood up to address these issues when they were fresh. So now, old scars have opened new wounds as the politics get mirky with betrayal and fury.

What hit me really, to blog when i rarely blog, was the idea of the BF/F. About labelling a person your "friend" and "fiend". I love my brother, although i barely tell him that hahaha and it pained me to see him going through what i myself went through a decade ago (gawd i feel old). What his experience reminded again was the need for SMART choices over who we entrust our deepest secrets with. I've seen in the case of others, how temporary feelings of "trust" and "bond" have misled one to pour out his soul to a BF/F, unaware of the impending wrath one would incur when the rest of the world (lets call them paparazzi and gossipers) gets wind of it through the BF/F.

All hail the BF/F, assuming my hypothesis stays true, the BF/F is probably safest of all. The BF/F is like a news publishing company, you feed the tabloids to the rest of the gossip- hungry world, only getting into real trouble when the facts are wrong, or... when you disclose news that are not meant for the public eye. Yet many a time, the less discerning public give no thought to the workings of the press or BF/F.

Who should we fear the most?
Who should we trust?
Who should we label enemies, and friends?

Why should there be a need to closely categorize when in fact there might be a larger force uncontrollable to us that is shaping the workings of a friendship?

And so here's a post dedicated to my brother especially (: dear bro, its not hard to find friends along in life, but its not easy to find friends that will stick by you and stab you in the front. Don't hesitate to humble yourself when you are wrong, because that is a value often forgotten but much needed in dealing with matters concerning another. Remember the teachings of the Buddha and conduct your body, speech and mind with compassion and wisdom. Anger never solves the problem, and more often than not, it becomes the problem. Speak with awareness of the consequences, and remember--- "Emptiness-- what is ego?" (:
And to my dearest babes reading this post, once again I am grateful for having earned your friendships, in full trust and knowledge that I can grow and improve as a person under your truthful advices and criticisms. I love you all and although we rarely meet, I feel your presence! hugs.


>> Renny... << posted at 12:55 AM