this sucks. suddenly finding that what you thought was true all along may not be true after all. it sucks realizing that what you feel all along may not be true as you read entries from the past and realize how much has changed. and it sucks to realize that slowly, gradually, people are changing no matter how hard you try to deny that fact. and it sucks even more to know that all along you may be just stuck in the past, clinging to the impressions formed in the past, not knowing that what you are holding to is cuz of the past or the present. 

and you know what? 

it sucks the worst just when you realize that it is time to let go and then you realize that you may not be able to do it cuz you're still holding on to whatever thats left.

im feeling darn confused now. 

is this the season to be emo or what? sorry for the emo post at like 430am in the morn. i really shld be doing work/slping. 

someone tell me what to do please.