Da Clique

2009-12-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

no one will probably see this BUT!

Merry Christmas to all of you, my beloved <3

me craving for steamboat post

2009-11-11T16:54:00.000+08:00

those who haven reply me yet: REPLY ME!!!!

Spammage because it's about time

2009-10-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

Not my picture, in case there's some copyright issues and a disclaimer is needed.

Or if you prefer the processed food version:

twenty one.

2009-09-05T16:04:00.003+08:00

Pros:

15 hrs longer than usual.

spent in beautiful yosemite national park.

Cons:

i miss home.

i miss my friends.

even though i'm with my frens traveling around now, and they did wish me happy bday, but the feeling is jsut different.

to quote irritating lionel seah: i'd rather be taupoked in hall and get cake all over my face. at least it shows the <3>

i'll have lots of memories of the places i went to on this trip to remember by; to tell myself how lucky am i to be able to spend my bday in such a place.

but i'd rather trade the place for the bonds that i have back in singapore. just for this day alone. sigh. Lucky there's fb to keep me going, to remind me of everything back home.

sigh. i'm emo lonely hungry and sleepy.

San Francisco is so cold it's giving me a flu. sigh.

so much to say but i dno how to put it into words ):

MCHELLE

2009-08-27T09:45:00.002+08:00

MICH MICH MICH MICH MICH MICH MICH MICH MICH MICH!!!!!

YOU ARE MUCH MISSED!

go there and have loads of fun ok. have like 6 times of fun for the rest of us ok! and please please please give us your mailing address :D

MICHELLE WE LOVE YOU!

pre-sep syndrome

2009-08-15T00:53:00.001+08:00

IRO wasn lying when they said that a student going for exchange will experience varying emotions something like a roller coaster ride.

I think i've gotten past the exciting + happiness + adrenaline rush of going for exchange; now i think i'm starting to think of all that i will miss when i'm on exchange!

emo nemo. heh.

12 more days!

Anniversary

2009-08-07T00:14:00.000+08:00

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot. Okay, not unusual, except that this time round it wasn’t easy to put my finger on what was bothering me. So it took a while, and this was the result.

I’ve been, well, catching up with people lately. You know, all those people you meet along this winding road we call life, then stop seeing regularly once you hit a different checkpoint, and at certain rest stops, decide to call them up for a chat to see how they’re doing? And you remember how you used to have fun with them?

So yeah. I’ve been doing a lot of that.

And every time I do, it feels like a piece of the puzzle is missing. A piece that isn’t so important that you can’t see the main subject of the picture but annoys the hell out of you just because it makes it feel so incomplete.

I just figured out what that piece was.

As much fun as I have with them, when I’m with you, all of you, it transcends fun.

With all we’ve been through together, playing, teasing, bitching, taking comfort in each other, it’s more than enjoying ourselves. Having seen the best and worst of one another, there isn’t really much to hide.

They say real friends have our backs whether it’s a clear sunny day or being caught in a storm with no frickin’ shelter. Personally, I think it’s more like knowing when to scold you for being an idiot for not bringing an umbrella even as they shelter you from said storm.

That’s why, this day when I’m officially going to be responsible for all my own actions, I dedicate to you, my friends, da bestest best clique. Because I know that when I’m happy, you’ll be happy for me, when I’m sad, you’ll cheer me up, (when I’m annoyed, you’ll leave me alone to get over it), when I’m being stupid, you’ll whack me on the head and tell me I’m being stupid.

And I also don’t see the need for a party because every time we meet is a carnival of sorts. A celebration of all the years we’ve travelled along this road together. A festival of friendship.

Thank you for that friendship.

some references

2009-08-01T16:51:00.002+08:00

I was looking around at some book binding sites and i found this webbie:

http://www.cailun.info/

Cai Lun is inventor of paper. The blog's author is Dennis Yuen, an artist and award-winning designer who works with a range of media including: book arts, interactive media, photography, film and video.

His work is really inspiring i think but require a lot of skills to achieve the same results. Some examples:

http://cailun.info/index.php?/archives/154-Golden-Rainbow-Miniature-Book.html
http://www.cailun.info/index.php?/archives/245-More-on-Touch,-Listen.html
http://www.cailun.info/index.php?/archives/247-Book-79.html.html
http://www.cailun.info/index.php?/archives/249-Thick-Long-stitch.html
http://www.cailun.info/index.php?/archives/304-The-Shopping-Bagook.html

my thoughts

2009-07-23T16:03:00.002+08:00

Bekahyap: would it be an online thing or will it have a physical shop too? if it's online we might have some problem publicising it. and also will the business be easily copied? in the sense that someone esle can easily open another thing that does the same thing as us? might need to think abt how we can mkae it more unique..

Just saw ur msg, bekah. I am think online shop will be more logical as we may be able to save on a number of cost. Have a physical shop doesn't mean that it will be easier to publicise as we are not established. Regarding the qn abt will the business be easily copied, maybe we can do some research into it. So far i haven seen a lot of shops selling those. And bookbinding is actually a very versatile art. There is a lot of ways to bind a book, like exposed stitching, or hidden stitiching. Glue or glueless. Acordian (shucks i can't spell...) books, japanese stabbing technique. .. hahahaha I guess to a certain degree it is can be copied. About the uniqueness point, i think i need more brain cells to think abt it. lol Maybe with the option to customise?

My friend has an online store but she sells decorated notebooks. Like she buys blank notebooks and sell them off after decorating.

One idea

2009-07-20T16:46:00.002+08:00

I was thinking abt ideas for our "business".... I mentioned this to she she before. Maybe we could see handmade books with the options to customise?

Not sure about what u all think of it?

Anyways, my internship has ended and I want to thank all of u for being there for me when I was feeling down! I love you!!!

YESSSS IT IS TIME FOR CHEAP AND GOOD FOOD ON 16-07-2009

2009-07-08T22:42:00.006+08:00

6es! Save our wallets! Cheap and good food ftw!!

Date : 16-07-2009, Thursday

Time : 7PM +/- (after work) to 10PM +/-

Location : CHOOSE FROM THE BELOW!!

1) Yes Natural F&B (Restaurant)
Address: 57 Geylang Lorong 27
Pricing: As low as $5 for a one-dish meal

Highlights: Stone pot rice, baked cheese rice, 三宝饭??!!
More details: Click here!

2) North South East West Fusion Vegetarian
Address: Blk 89 Marine Parade Central #01-750
Pricing: As low as $5 per person

Highlights: Baked rendang rice, Mushroom stewed noodles (EW)
More details: Click here!

3) Kwan Inn Vegetarian Food
Address: Blk-134, Geylang East Ave 1, #01-229 Next to Geylang East CC

Pricing: Laksa costs $2 per bowl, others unknown

Highlights: Laksa, Kway Chap (If we’re talking about the same restaurant, then Yi Xian says their laksa is good)
I found a link with a picture of their laksa here (scroll all the way down!)

4) Divine Realm!!
Address: 501 Hougang Avenue 8 Singapore 530501
Pricing: A good number of you guys went there before once for vegetarian dim sum but I didn’t join in at that time so I think you guys know the pricing much better than I do

Highlights: Vegetarian dim sum, la mian

Please respond on the tagboard and KEEP THE CLIQUE BLOG ALIVE. Many thanks and much love,

SHE SHE

Happy happy!

2009-07-08T00:15:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY BERNICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Love you lots!!! XD

~Da Clique~

Mini Update

2009-06-13T23:49:00.001+08:00

Xian has shifted her blog! Please refer to the link from this blog and relink her (:

Sorry I've been MIA-ing, I've been working but somehow it was extra tiring for me for the past week. Am catching up on sleep, will do some catching up with you guys after I recharge myself! Really really tired these days... x_x

P/S: Ling, paiseh about the late reply to your sms!

UCLA HERE I COMEEEEE

2009-05-21T22:07:00.001+08:00

'Congratulations on your approval for participation in the University of California’s Education Abroad Program at the UC Los Angeles campus.

Please find below your UCLA Logon ID.

Start Term: Fall 2009

Name: Bei-Yi Michelle LIM

Home University: National University of Singapore'

WAHAHHAHAHAH. MY DREAM UNI!!!!! whooooooootsssssss :D

need to go book visa soon le!!!

heh heh.

the verdict

2009-05-20T23:10:00.005+08:00

(Alright ling replied! )

breakfast on sat morn

shehui, mich, ber, xian, ling

bball tmr night

shehui, jc, renny

so, we'll be having breakfast at my place at 9.30am on saturday! i was thinking we'll have bacon, scrambled eggs, hotdogs (are there vegeterian hotdogs?), coffee/tea/orange juice, kaya toast, pancakes?

any other suggestions?

jc and renny, try to come yea? jc, can come my place stay the night before if you want, then you won't need to wake up that early...

lets meet up please!

2009-05-20T13:33:00.004+08:00

ok i've got 2 options here:

1/ Saturday morning, 9.30am-11.45am, bekah's house (yishun)
I prepare breakfast for you all! so we'll just eat and talk.

2/ tomorrow night, 7.45pm, bball at hougang

that's it for now. i'll be flying to Cambodia on 30thMay, getting back on 8th June. 10 days there for a mission trip with church. can we please please please meet up before that??

Back

2009-05-09T21:59:00.002+08:00

My internship is starting on Monday. Super nervous now cos i dunno where the place is and how the working environment is like.... Anyways ask me out after work!!!! My working hours are from 0830 to 1800. Meet for dinner or sth ba.

Wish me luck and motivation!!!

2009-04-26T11:51:00.000+08:00

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talent ........

2009-04-17T18:15:00.002+08:00

Taking a break from studying and was facebooking. Ernest posted this youtube video. My god, nothing prepared me for the sudden flood of emotion when I heard Susan Boyle sing..... I think this is a must watch really!

Embedding is disabled but watch it at: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

Went to do a simple search on youtube and found a video that contained an audio of her singing Cry Me A River. Not sure whether this is really her but my god............. that voice............

Shame on them

2009-04-16T23:57:00.001+08:00

Racism at work, dearies. Blardy insensitive people....

we haven't done this in a loonnnggg time

2009-04-16T22:16:00.001+08:00

After everyone's exams, ok? :D

santa fe ftw!

2009-03-30T23:32:00.001+08:00

Santa Fe Tex-Mex food in celebration of Ling's 21st! My version is here and Bekah has uploaded hers to the clique blog. Btw this is the exact same post that I'm going to publish on both my blog and the clique blog, lazy what, hur hur hurrrr~ =x

OOOOOOH TORTILLASSSSS~

Mozarella sticks!! These were like really CHEESY cheese sticks. :D

My half-priced herb chicken. Wheee~ 赚到了~

Veggie Fajitas, the zucchinis rock!! (Damn the mushrooms, haha)

The left part of this Chicken and Beef Fajitas has Ling's name written all over it. SOMEONE claimed that she can eat more chicken than any other one of us with the exception of Jing Chuan. Which is really unfair cos Ber and Mich has small appetites, I'm cutting down on meat intake, Renny and Xian are vegetarians and Bekah eats a large variety of food rather than a lot of the same thing. SOMEONE play cheat lo~

To go with the food into the wraps. Their sour cream KEELS.

Ahahahahaha I like Ber's expression.

The birthday cake. This is one of those cakes that ALL of us LOVE. :DDDD (by the way we were waiting for Ling Yi for SO LONG LA. SOMEONE went to the toilet for so long we had to keep relighting the candles =x)

Whee~ <3~

We're hungry people. We're greedy people. We're food lovers :D

Haha Xian your expression!

Xian is acting cute AGAIN~

Enemy vanquished. Good job girls. >:D

Ber's insistence to be part of every photo!!

HAHAHAHA Look at Xian in one of her laughing fits because of Ber.

Once she starts, she can't stop! (Sounds like some advertisement slogan)

This is half my assigned workload in 2 weeks :D *stabs NUS*

I like the shocked expression and Yi Xian's SINISTER one! Hahahaha!

Present One: The nice fancy necklace that looks like a belt.

Present Two: A PINK WALLET. We're the only ones who ended up getting her a wallet leh. Hehehehehehehehe.

Hands-down favourite for the night and one of my all-time favourites. It's my desktop wallpaper now! Hahahahahaha SOOOO CUTE!

Tata~ Back to annoying school work~ Love all :D

let the photos speak :)

2009-03-27T01:07:00.006+08:00

LINE DANCE!!

2009-03-25T00:11:00.000+08:00

Spamming Obama-love

2009-03-14T11:26:00.002+08:00

[via feministing] on the creation of the White House Council on Women and Girls

*Squeee*

Vday planns

2009-02-12T13:25:00.002+08:00

OMG. I AM SO SORRYYY. i'm only available from 3-6pm.. got match support frm 1-2++ then at night got another booking.

I DONT MIND KBOX.

but i think i need to explain to u guys why the match support from 1-2 when i clearly can pon it.

errrrr. i'm in a erm.. MAYBE complicated situation with this person from my block. so errrr the situation is daaamn ambiguous now... so... i figured if i showed face during his finals, it might help things abit. (: and i think he wants me to go larh. if not he wld have just told me to no need to go cause i had plans. but he told me to leave aft the match :/

ANW. for details (like how it started blah blah) ask bekah or shehui. hahaha.

And ANW. he's damn nice la. hahahahah abandon his friends for me to sit in the bus w lonely me. (:

OHWELLS.

IM STILL SINGLE AND AVAILABLE. SO I WILL AND DIE DIE MUST MEET UP WITH YOU ALL. Haven seen you guys in 948204802938490 years sia.

AND I GOT PRESENTS FOR U ALL ALSOOOOOO.

xoxo

loves (:

p.s. any one wants to volunteer to give me guy advice to un-ambiguous the situation? hahahahahha. its always welcome (:

Valentine's Day Proposal by XIAN

2009-02-12T10:33:00.004+08:00

As the post title suggests, I've posted this up in case you people don't check your e-mails.

Here we have a proposal by Xian:

First, we go to this Mixed Media Exhibition at a musuem featuring the solo works of this guy, if I'm not wrong his works cover Serbia, Slovenia and USA. (:

Next, we head over to the vegetarian restaurant/bar next to the musuem to have dinner and rot and talk until late at night (they operate until midnight on Fridays and Saturdays).

I think we will all like this place very much, it's not only vegetarian-friendly, but also environmentally friendly. They're not only against the meat industry but also against third world exploitation, pollution and many other things we ourselves disagree with.

Restaurant website: http://www.food03.sg/feeding/index.php/eatlah.html

Tag and let me know what you think. We'll meet at Farrer Park MRT at 6PM tentatively. If you guys are strongly against this proposal, or there are other places you want to go, help keep the blog active and POST. :D

In addition, I'm booked from the morning until the afternoon. If you guys want to do anything together in the day, go ahead and plan. MICHELLE LIM is only free from 3-6pm. :(

Thanks Xian for being the only one who thought about something. All I had in mind was k-box. =x

<3333

Spam #3

2009-02-09T16:37:00.002+08:00

Yes, I think, I'll make it a habit to post spam when an update is needed.

Ho Ho Ho ?

2009-01-19T17:03:00.002+08:00

Sorry mich. PENGXIAO is coming over on 28th Jan so I won't be able to attend your production. SORRY! I haven't seen her in 21 months, please understand okay? T_________T

Anyways people I just wanted to apologise for being lazy to organize clique stuff. I will buck up this sem!! Die die must do something big this coming summer break ya?!

P/S : Ling, you're random.

PP/S : History rocks :DDDDDDDD

PPP/S : :D

TEN MORE DAYSSSSS

2009-01-15T22:13:00.002+08:00

OMG. TEN MORE DAYS AND I AM FREEEEEEEE.

Showday's on the 28th Jan, 8pm at NUS UCC!

For those who dno what i'm talking about, i'm involved in my faculty's production as the stage manager or SM. haha. so.. the play's 28th Jan, 8pm at UCC theatre. But since tickets are FOC, if you guys wna come, must come at 7pm to collect the tickets cause its first come first serve! ahahha.

-end of publicity-

EH LINGYI. what stories. pls. NO STORIES LA. omg. hahahah. my life is filled with work also lor. start at 8am end at 10pm. how sad is that man. ): hahahaha

okok for those who miss meowmie. he is doing fine :D HAHAHA.

okk me go back study alr sia. seeyaaaa.

Ling's updates

2009-01-15T21:53:00.005+08:00

I am so freaking busy.
Work
Work
Work
Work
and
more Work

Oh wells, what can I do?
hahah
Nothing!

Nothing much to update actually-_-
But i just realised,
Renny's facebook states that she is married to Ang Chor
SO SWEET

Michelle,
Any updates?
Think you have the most stories
So post it up!!!

back to school

2009-01-12T09:15:00.002+08:00

I am back!! lol. Start of sch is a bitch and week 2 is going to a torture when all the lessons officially start this week! How's your first week/day? It is pretty much the same as before for me. More work to do... Haiz all the work is making me want to escape to somewhere, like overseas or sth.

I wanna go overseas!!! Maybe after I confirm my PA then I shall try to plan to somewhere. Preferably somewhere with a different climate!!!! *dreams of beautiful countries* *smiles to herself in the sch FAL*

Ah I changed my blogskin! DBSK-inspired. I shall end this entry with their new single, Bolero's lyrics:

DBSK-Bolero Lyric and Translation

Yami ni ukabu tsuki no stage ni odoru kimi wo yume mitanda
In my dreams I saw you dancing on the moon’s stage in the dark

fukai fukai mune no kizu wo hitotsu hitotsu se owanaide
Don’t try to carry the burden of all the deep deep wounds in your chest alone

dare mo kimi wo semeyashinai kimi wa kimi de ireba ii sa
No one can blame you, its ok if you be yourself

kikasete itoshiku hakanaku tsubasaki de kanaderu bolero
Let me hear the lovely, fleeting wings of the bolero playing

maiagare kimi no kanashimi mo iyasareru basho ni mitsukeru sa
Soar high, you will discover a place that will even heal your sadness

kurai heya no naka mitasareru omoi mado kara afure
The emotions that fill up the dark room overflow from the window

yume ga tsunoru tsuki hikari no shita kamoshara ni kibou no rhythm wo kizamu
The moon’s light invites dreams giving rise to the hopes engraved in the rhythm *

yume ga tsunoru
Inviting dreams

kimi ga kimi rashii no wa jiyuu ni habataku kara
Since you appear to flap your wings freely

daremo shirukoto no nai kotae sagashite
No one knows the answer you search for

kikasete itoshiku hakanaku tsuba saki de kanaderu bolero
Let me hear the lovely, fleeting wings of the bolero playing

maiagare kimi no kanashimi mo iyasareru basho ni mitsukeru sa
Soar high, you will discover a place that will even heal your sadness

*[i have no idea what kamoshara means so i used 'kamosu' so i could complete the line]

Translation: daisukizutto@LJ + annneonet@LJ
Romanji: toakagasuki@LJ

taken from http://pinkrazy.wordpress.com/2008/12/14/dbsk-bolero-lyric-and-translation/

It's 2009!!!

2009-01-01T00:00:00.003+08:00

A very, very, VERY happy new year to all my beloved friends.

Dearest girls,

Words can't express my gratitude to you all for everything. May we hold on dearly to this friendship forever and let it be our strength in life.

I LURRRVEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL~

LURBE LURBE LURBE!! :D

STEAMBOAT

2008-12-25T23:31:00.003+08:00

hey girls!

remember our steamboat date on the 31st??

can come my house if you all don't mind! its in khatib. haha.

can can?? is it still on? i want steamboat w u all!!!

one more photo

2008-12-13T00:01:00.002+08:00

It was a coincidence, but Renny's soy sauce trails created a smiley on her porridge while we were having dinner at Crystal Jade, hahahaha. So cute! X)

P/S: I love the mini-face-beside-each-individual-blog-author thingy. I think it's freaking cool. :D

Photos

2008-12-08T12:37:00.007+08:00

The ones that turned out well:

Cartel, J8

Didn't have any other nice pics.

CHEESE!!
My tastebuds still remember the pizza, yum.
And you know where the following pics come in.

Ok so I'm done with photos, early tomorrow morning I'll be flying off to Hainan Island, and from there making my way east. See you all in a couple of weeks time.

Re: Holiday Agenda

2008-12-04T19:46:00.000+08:00

#1 -- Repay sleep debt (still pending)
#2 -- Revamp clique blog (there you have it)
#3 -- GAME!! (A) PSP (B) Audi (C) PS2 (D) PC
#4 -- Manga Mania... and a selected few Animes
#5 -- Reading some Chinese novels and a few English ones
#6 -- Work and earn money to pay bills and survive (=___=)
#7 -- Rewatch my favourite shows
#8 -- Decide what to do with my hair before CNY comes along
#9 -- Spy Old Navy for potential sales
#10 -- Pray and hope that school dies
#11 -- Pray harder
#12 -- Stalk random people online
#13 -- Bully Mich
#14 -- Bully her more
#15 -- Go back to my sketching (if I'm REALLY free)
#16 -- Bomb NUS
#17 -- Bomb it again
#18 -- Bomb it yet again
#19 -- Sleep more
#20 -- Play bball together

Tada~ Oh ya, please sign up fer an account for the new chat. It's like a tagboard version of msn, we can see who's at the blog at the same time. But don't spam too much, because if you do, you'll get banned for 15 minutes. Rijichou will be me and anonymous people are usually AnonXXXX (with X as random numbers)

Hope you all like the new blogskin. Sorta suits our current lives, no?

meow

2008-12-04T18:14:00.001+08:00

hello my dears! so so sorry for being mia, exams just ended on tues for me, and i haven't taken a proper break other than wed night out cause immed aft my afternoon paper on tuesday, i was dragged to dean's office for a meeting. :/ ahha. ANWS. i'll be away in KL from tonight (thursday) all the way till next tuesday! then wed and thurs i got some MOE seminar, which is followed by dance camp from 12th - 14th! and after that i'll be kinda busy with production stuffs and hall stufffs, but i'm still free for dinnerrrrr! :D just let me know in advance so i can work sth out. yayyyy

take care alrights!! seeya all sooon! *huggs*

RE: Holiday Agenda

2008-12-04T14:03:00.003+08:00

JC's holiday looks something like this:

backpacking trip with Jia Wei and Quanmin, tentatively: Haikou (Hainan, China)–> Sanya –> Nanning –> Hanoi (North Vietnam)–> Sapa
training for Inter-Hall Games next semester (Touch Rugby, Swimming, Handball), approximately 2-3 training sessions each per week = 6-9 / week, hopefully with a few clashes in timing here and there so she doesn't burn out.
constantly wondering whether she should find part-time job to cover costs of (1.), probably will not because she's too lazy
read something that is not from a. www.fanfiction.net, b. www.fictionpress.com, c. blogs.
finish reading Le Petit Prince, (The Little Prince)
write something. anything.
watch a movie, finish watching Heroes, among others
organize all her music files, photos, videos, bookmarks
organize her room(s)
and finally, not getting round to completing numbers 4. to 9. because they're all "Works in Progress"

oh. and no. 11. remind renny that its ok to be insecure, and anyway, at least she knows what she wants to do.

HOLIDAY AGENDA

2008-12-04T10:30:00.002+08:00

1) Get my iMac, and get used to the new OS
2) Get Sonar7/8 (recording software) to install into iMac
3) Continue learning guitar by myself (cuz no $$)
4) Practice piano (everydayyyyyyyy, i try!)
5) Sing everyday (that's easy)
6) Get 2 CD shelves from IKEA cuz my CD collection is trying to imitate Mt Everest alr
7) Get the half-written songs out and about: 1 must be done my 31 Dec for countdown, others not so urgent

I am disadvantaged. Well, sort of. The fact that I'm in uni (4 BLEEDING YEARS) only means that I'm passed up for really rare jobs. Its not that I can kick up a fuss about all this shit, because I know these 4 years are really impt for my parents. So, all i can do now is make do with the yearly hols and come up with something good. The sad thing is that usually during holidays, it seems like there're less music opportunities! Its always during the sch months that I'm offered rare jobs that can beef up my reportoire. I remember pushing away one recording job during the studying break, and another during the mid term exam season. What to do. BLEAGH.

You know sometimes i get really insecure about everything and I feel like i'm the lousiest shit in the world. X) But I already chose this path, and Renhui never takes halfway jobs! I'm gonna see this to the end.

I AM BACK!!!

2008-12-02T08:09:00.002+08:00

hahahah. I took a super long slacking break!

MY EXAM IS LONG OVER! hahhaahhahahahahhaha

I am still worried cos i screwed up a lot of papers... I need comfort when my results come out.....
i wanna :
1) watch movie
2) go window shopping
3) go gaga over dbsk

hahahahah i am crazy over dbsk!!! 东方神起! i am totally in love. <3
I will post a video of them soon!!! Go see on youtube if u want!
I recommend 'Mirotic' MV and they write some of their own songs. [:

muahaha

2008-11-29T23:56:00.002+08:00

i know i'm being evil but i couldn't resist this.

MY EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!! YAY!!!!

I want to go for haircut. do sth different to my hair. anyone wants to join me?

And Now For My Daily Procrastination Post

2008-11-21T13:32:00.004+08:00

Hey guys, if you use public transport and concession, support the petition for better concession rates for poly/tertiary students'. Won't take too long to fill in the form.

www.petition4fairtransport.org

(Don't know why I bother posting now. No one's reading. *scowls* I AM FRICKIN' BORED.)

And Just Coz I'm Procrastinating Too

2008-11-20T15:23:00.000+08:00

Enjoy!

This Blog is DEAD

2008-11-20T15:06:00.002+08:00

.... But I'm gonna hunt fer a new skin fer it after exams anyways. Keep it alive, people. Show some effort!!! (After exams, of course)

.... And as usual, I'm procrastinating.

*sighs*

And now for some depressing news

2008-11-19T18:06:00.002+08:00

California's Proposition 8. 'Nuff said.

HE WON!!!

2008-11-05T12:13:00.001+08:00

I wanna run, I wanna scream, I wanna shout it out loud!

(Totally beats my bad mood for the last week.)

YES

2008-11-03T11:57:00.001+08:00

I want to quit school.

I REALLY WANT TO.

Just Because I Can

2008-10-02T15:26:00.001+08:00

(:

2008-09-20T01:53:00.001+08:00

Read from somewhere that people enter and exit our lives for a reason.

Just wna say i'm very glad that you guys entered my life and made me who i am today.

Busy Busy Busy

2008-09-09T19:05:00.002+08:00

I wouldn't normally post here when my own bloggie's still stuck in the middle ages, but I figured a quickie wouldn't hurt. Hee.

Anyway Inter-Block Games are over, so yay for going home early on week-ends, but term papers and mid-term tests are coming up so still not as free as I would like to be.

And as a show of support for Renny, when's everyone free (to watch the movie)?

Happy Birthday to You~

2008-09-05T10:51:00.001+08:00

Happy happy 20th Birthday to our silly little Michelle Lim.

Love ya lots gurl. Enjoy yourself and rock on. ^__________^

<33333333333333333333333333333333

Wah.. this can happen

2008-08-25T14:18:00.002+08:00

Hey michelle, if that's the shampoo you are using, i better stay away from it. *pinch my nose

People watch out!

Anyway, yesterday can be considered the most exciting and horrifying day of my life. Guess what, i Knocked down this guy while he was crossing the road. Holy, imagine my horror when i saw him in front of my van.

I didnt see him crossing the pedestrian, so when i saw him, it was too late to jam brake and prevent hitting him. Fortunately, he was fine. He didnt suffer any visible injuries and didnt break anything. His parents came and called the ambulance and police. Luckily for me, two of my friends were with me. So i wasnt really very afraid. My parents came and dilly dally, we went to the police station after that and recorded down my statement. The guy went to hospital to check up and nothing is wrong with him. Doctor issued him one day MC. However, since i was 'dangerously driving', i will confirm get fined and have demerit points. Hopefully since the pedestrian did not suffer much injuries, the fine will be minimised to 200 dollars with 9 demerit points. However, the highest can go up to 3000 dollars fine with the revoke of license.

Now you are wondering how i feel? I feel nothing now.. Shocked initially when i saw him in front of my van but since he is fine, i am not worrying anymore=) Now my friends are making fun of me. Keep using the term "knock you down".

hahhaa my life is damn exciting... i wonder why...
i would die early if i have this kind of heartattack so often

Thats it=)

shower foam

2008-08-24T01:21:00.002+08:00

woots. i just changed my shower foam to this:

wahhaha i bought the 2nd one. looks purple but is actually pink. And it smells daaaaaaaaaaaaaamn nice.

now i smell nice too! (:

highly recommended (:

yayy

Updates101

2008-08-21T12:42:00.003+08:00

Oh please bekah, is that considered as update? You didnt even mention how your trip was like and how much u miss ME.

To demonstrate how an update is considered as one, I shall now teach you.

Firstly, mention the person whom you miss most. Of course that person is no other than ling yi!

Secondly, mention the places you have been to.

Thirdly, describe the places and what you did there.

Fourthly, how you feel towards the opening of school.

Lastly, mention that you felt something was missing in your life when youre away. Provide the reason> Cos ling wasnt there with you.

Wahahah, thats all for updates 101=)

群众要求

2008-08-20T15:24:00.003+08:00

HAHA. so thick skinned hor. Anyways here is my update. been super busy working, so much so that i didn't have time for anything else. I miss you all like crazy! n i'm sorry for not responding to renny n mich's angry cries. but it doesn't mean i forgot u all ok! hais missed the steamboat. shall plan sth soon so that i can see u all...

now i'm enjoying my time. i'm a slacker by nature. didn't have chance to nuar during my hols so now i'm enjoying myself just sitting down n reading mag/watching tv or just doing nothing :D. such a luxury. muahaha.

ok so i'm done with the update. lingyi!! now your turn! then the rest ok! xian'er your blog neh update one. update leh!

singlish rocks!

Renny we love you <333

2008-08-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

Renny dearest, we all love you and we all will be here fer you. ^__^

<333333

We are Broken

2008-08-01T11:34:00.002+08:00

I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
And with my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me
Yeah

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors
Cause I'd like to capture this voice
That came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Tower over me
Tower over me

And I'll take the truth at any cost

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

======================================================================

hellllllllo babes,
i was listening to this rock band, paramore's album and came across this song called "We are Broken" and gosh the song totally swept me away.

It hit me cuz of the lyrics that applies to most of us i suppose. Sometimes when I do things I have no slight intention in doing but just end up doing due to my circumstances (like studying in NUS) I find myself in many situations where I just stop myself and ask,

"What am I doing?"

And I get stumped. What the hell am I doing, doing my readings diligently, even slogging my guts out, and getting into the dean's list twice. And yes anyway, I got into the dean's list again this semester, much to the joy of my parents. Didnt feel much though, I turned down the dean's list prize presentation ceremony (my mom FLIPPED upon knowing i turned down the invitation), and I can't exactly remember where the first dean's list certificate is. Of course I certainly pride my PGA certificate over this dean's list thing.

Humans have insatiable needs/wants, this gaping hole NEVER gets filled up through the course of life. You come into this life with the hole looking for something to fill it up with and the next thing you realise is that you're lying on your death bed thinking about about all that you haven't done.

Its normal I suppose, especially when the most intangible of emotions is getting commercialised, that we are looking to the outside to fill up this hole. But at the end of the day, when we sit alone in the room, and look upon all that we have, which are the ones can we bring along with us when we die? Cds, certs, dresses, photos...?

"What are we doing?"

Non-stop chasing. Whatever we can get our hands on to fill up the emptiness in ourselves. What have I been doing? What has happened to me? We desperately try to fit ourselves into this huge world. We are constantly on the search to find a place in this world to position ourselves in, to find reason, to understand. As this goes on, and on, and on... we forget to look within. how much have we changed?

"How much have we changed to please?"

We've gotta admit it. We might not have noticed this, but we do change (as subtle the changes might be) for those we love the most or hold close to our heart. The changes might be good, but some might just end up making you feeling less whole than before. More broken perhaps?

No one's perfect. As we trudge through this journey, you find people who live their lives like a masquerade. As we pit ourselves against the likes of such people, they take away bits and pieces of ourselves, eating away the corners. We might even lose ourselves in the process.

"Where's the innocence?"

Lost perhaps?

Have we ever sat down to ask ourselves, how broken are we in reality? Tearing away the materialistic facades we shower upon ourselves, tearing away the masks we don on in the world, how much of US is left?

"How much of life have we wasted?"

We can do something to change how we live.

But could we live our lives while keeping the truth of ourselves?

How much of us must we hide?

grahhh

2008-07-21T03:08:00.002+08:00

IM PISSEDDDDDDDDDD. grahhhhhhhhhhhhh. havent felt so pissed in a long time. and u guys shld know that i dont get pissed with my friends/goodfriends/closefriends easily. this one is really quite major. grahhhh. he apologised and im still pissed. speaks alot huh?

sms me or call me after 730pm for more details.

P.S sorry shehui! i didn know u were sleeping alr!! sorry sorry!!! ):

P.P.S thanks jingchuan for listening to me rant. grahhhh.

I AM ROYALLY PISSED

2008-07-18T02:33:00.003+08:00

I AM SO SO SO SO PISSED NOW. i have never felt SO MUCH anger seeping through my veins until TODAY!

SENSELESS, APATHETIC, CANT BE BOTHERED WITH YOU! IT SEEMS THAT ALL THE %^%@(*#&(@*#)@(#)*( HASNT DONE MUCH GOOD TO YOUR BRAIN OR HEART.

anyone wants to know the story just call me and i shall let u on about it.

damn it man.

New Skin, New Mood!

2008-07-12T00:37:00.001+08:00

Wheeeeee, hope you guys like it <3333

If There Were More People Like This

2008-07-11T21:24:00.002+08:00

Touching story of a college softball match.

drumroll please!

2008-07-10T17:46:00.001+08:00

congratulate me. i just carried back 25 cans of spray paints, 23 rolls of masking tape, and 50 sheets of sand paper. all by myself!!!!

without a word of thanks.

WELCOME BACK JING CHUANNNNNNNNN (:

2008-07-08T11:47:00.004+08:00

WELCOME BAAAACKKKK (:

-edit-

to admend my previous post, i DO NOT mean you guys kay.. what i meant was that there are some pple in my comm, who totally dno the details, or rather just the surface of this whole thing, and then they come n tell me in an irritated tone that i have no need to worry, confirm can get room blah blah.. sigh. i was refering to those pple larh. not u guys. sorry pple! ): sorry shehui!! ):

We missed you =)

2008-07-08T11:42:00.001+08:00

Dearest Jing Chuan,

Welcome Home. <33333

worried

2008-07-08T02:45:00.002+08:00

heyyy rag will be over by 8th august. b4 tt i think i will only be free on wkends. date u or sth kay. (mb earlier if i quit cuz i cant get a room. read below)

so much has happened recently. i really really really hope that Kent Ridge Hall will not disappoint me again. I should be able to know by tuesday morn whether i got a room, on waiting list or i didn. Friends have been telling me to chill and not to think abt it and just go sleep. but i cant. given a choice. i dont want to worry too. i wna go to sleep with a peaceful and happy mind. but i cant. i know that i should trust my block head, should trust my chairperson and all, but i CANT. so much has happened. the way my chairperson handles stuff related to room totally gives me the feeling that she someone who is damn biased towards pple in her clique. And given the fact and all the rubbish and nonsense that happened between me and her, u tell me how am i supposed to place 100% trust in her that she will help me? she even went to the extent of comparing me with my partner, saying that it is very hard for her to justify why i deserve a room because she FEELS that my partner is working harder than me. hello. i worked bloody hard for the hall for NINE months. i put in my all and everything to the hall. when i knew that i didn have enuff points to stay, i chose to join rag. i placed my confidence and trust that by giving my 3mths of holidays in return, the most decent thing they can do is to give me a room.

Looking at the way things are now, i really dunno. i have darn little confidence in my chair. The person i trust right now would be my blockhead. but then again, i know that if i have 100% trust in him, i wouldn be worrying right now. I know that there is this tendency for him to talk until damn nice in front of me, but when the actual situation comes, that might not be the case.

I cant seem to find anyone in my comm who seems to fully understand where im coming from. all i need is someone who will listen and understand where im coming from. i dont need total agreement from them. at the end of the conversation, perhaps what you will tell me would still be the same ' theres nothing you can do, just chill k?' but at least you listened and u understood. but sometimes i just feel NO POINT in telling anyone about all that has happened. cuz they wont understand. dont ask me why i know they wont understand. you just know it. some people, after hanging out with them for quite some time, you just know what u can tell them and what u cant. there are 3 pple in the comm whom im exceptionally close to, but they're all bogged down by all other stuff, sometimes i just cant bear to tell them, and bother them with my troubles. especially so when u know that they might feel that it is nothing to worry about.

it is then that i realise why even though now that i got over my cute guy, there is still this inclination to go running towards him when i have something troubling me. cuz i know that he will be there to listen and to understand where i am coming from and really be there for me. Even like i said before, i know his response would probably be something like ' u cant do anyting about it' but i still know that he knows and understands how i am feeling. its just like how u guys have always been for me, to listen and to understand me. for that. i am really really grateful to u all.

last friday i heard that my cute guy got into an accident. i totally freaked out. that incident set me thinking again.thinking whether i am so freaked out and so concerned from a good friend's point of view, or cuz i havent gotten over him? coupled with the fact that im always running towards him whenever i have a problem, my friend says that i havent gotten over him. some says its habit.

tonight i finally realise the reason.

i put in so much for this hall. when i joined this holiday comm, i sacrificed so much more than my social life, my family. i sacrificed my block comm duty as well. when people tell me that i have no need to worry, i told them that i have every reason to worry. no point elaborating. they will just get irritated and think that i am worrying to much.

i feel that i have been betrayed once by my hall. i got like only 30% trust in my chairperson and vice chair. I trust my block head up to about 80%, but there's only so much he can do. either that. or he is not willing to.

to put it bluntly and perhaps offending a million people in the process, who are they to say that i should just stop worrying since i cant do anything about it? i KNOW and AGREE that is probably is the best thing that i should do now. but will u please see things from my point of view and understand why am i so freaking bloody worried before saying this?

i feel so damn worried and helpless at this point in time now. Even if the result tmr is positive, i am still so gna kill whoever who says ' i told you so.'

okays. sorry if i sound in coherent and taht u dont really get the full picture. need details. just gimme a buzz.

thanks dears. love you all loads.

Need Help!!!

2008-07-01T06:25:00.002+08:00

Hop over to my bloggy thanks. I've been having disagreements with someone and I need to know if I'm being a self-righteous bitch.

Oh and renny: Pride was fuuuun. People making out, drag queens, the gay arm of the police force shooting water guns and throwing lollipops, everyone dancing along the way, in between huge trucks with PSAs, people giving out flyers and "free hugs", minutes of silence to raise awareness of AIDS, homophobia, and other gay organisations. And then I met some people and we went into a gay bar, although it was kinda crowded and I didn't stay long. I only wish I'd thought to buy one of the rainbow flags.

Still Alive

2008-06-30T14:44:00.002+08:00

New post, finally, on my blog, link on your right =D Pictures on flickr too.

And She Hui, I miss you too!

Missing Genting's cool weather

2008-06-28T13:03:00.001+08:00

I updated my blog with pictures from my Genting trip. Super poor now cos half of my pay will be used to repay my sister fer the trip's expenses. x.x

http://rijichou.blogspot.com

.... And I miss Jing Chuan. T___T

C'est la vie

2008-06-21T01:35:00.003+08:00

Experiencing how another culture lives is very indicative of the differences between the East and the West. History has long taught us Asians the value of hard work, and apparently it has persisted until now. There are so many things wrong with the system. Yet, none is perfect. In every society, there will be flaws.

Here, with a 35 hour work week, the teachers tell us that Asians work a lot harder. But do they know how to play?

Xian, not getting a second major won't kill your chances. No one really cares at the end what it says on your transcript. It may feel like it now, but there are many more people, even back home, for whom school ends much earlier.

There are many paths to the end. The problem is that we're not taught to be creative and find our own ways.

P.S. Hope everything's fine with everyone else.
P.P.S. Email me your address if you want a postcard btw, it'll probably reach you after I arrive back, but nvm =D

to xian-er

2008-06-21T00:03:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel that society can't help the way it is progressing. Given the limited amt of time pple have to interact with each other, the most convenient way to 'assess' one is through academic results. good results imply a good brain and willingness to work hard. and it is only natural that these pple are given the 'chances'.

but things are not as bleak as it seems. actually, your problem is small. the second major thing, i mean. being in uni is already an advantage that many others do not have. how others look at you is only as important as you allow it to be. what value 'society' tags to you only becomes valid if you allow it to be. you are who you are, not what society thinks you are, or what chances/opportunities you are given.

in light of the all these natural disasters, of the bigger picture of life and death, i feel that academic/social standing, albeit important, should take a backseat in our hearts. if only we allow it to.

look in the mirror and give yourself a huge grin! society is giving us enough pressure as it is. don't help it by giving ourselves more.

the news article - 13岁女生因过度劳累中风

2008-06-20T17:08:00.001+08:00

据中新社电台南市一名13岁初一女生，在校突然左半身瘫软，医生检查后发现其右脑血管栓塞，可能因课业压力过大，长期过劳引发。

　　台湾奇美医院神经内科主任柯德鑫表示，这是自己遇到的最年轻的中风病例。目前，中风年龄层有下降趋势，但13岁就中风还很少见。通常来说，年轻的中风患者有的是因为基因异常、凝血功能有问题；有的是因为血管先天性狭窄、畸形，但这名初中女生经检查未发现任何异常，唯一可能的因素是学业压力过大、长期过劳引起中风。

　　这名女生在一天上课时，突然半身无力瘫在课桌前，校方立即将其送往医院急救，经检查，发现其右脑一条大血管严重栓塞。医师立即进行手术治疗。目前，患者已能行走，但肢体仍有明显挛缩。

　　柯德鑫表示，现代人竞争激烈，易有过劳情况，长期的压力、超时读书或工作，再加上熬夜，会让身体脱水，使血液浓稠，容易发生梗塞。同时，为了应付熬夜，身体会分泌压力激素，并带动血压上升，从而引发中风。他说，人体机能会对过劳发出警讯，只是人们经常忽略这些征兆，如记忆力减退、注意力无法集中、经常头痛等，工作压力大的人如发现存在以上症状，一定要引起警觉，多注意血压、血糖及血脂，才能避免因过劳中风。

Copied from http://news.idoican.com.cn/daqwb/html/2008-06/19/content_6836202.htm

Some thoughts (copy from my blog)

2008-06-20T16:35:00.001+08:00

This thought occurred to me that day when i was chatting with quan min. I was bitching the unfairness of the 2nd major thingy. It finally penetrated my slow mind that the second major thing is not possible for me. The email is for pple to drop the 2nd major.

I feel like my worthiness is actually determined by our academic achievement. The moment you fail in one of the stages of your academic life, you seem to lose all the chances and opportunities that might help you to improve. All the efforts in the world is concentrated in the so called elites. Opportunities are not available for you.

It seems to suggest that you has lost value to the society. Like you are not capable of contributing anything significant to the society.

The news ytd (晚报) that had the most impact on me is about this 13 year old that suffered a stroke.
In taiwan, this 13 year old suffered a stroke in the classroom. The doctor diagnosis was that the student was to stress out and it caused the clot to form in the brain....

What are we doing? What kind of society are we progressing towards?

appreciation

2008-06-20T00:36:00.001+08:00

sometimes i feel like im feeding a bunch of ingrateful brats.

On Betrayal and Childishness:

2008-06-18T00:55:00.004+08:00

my dearest ladies,

here's a post about my brother, who recently got embroiled in CCA politics, which I personally deem as seriously unnecessary- a necessary "mountain out of molehill" matter. XD

I wouldn't really go much into the details, because I respect the privacy of his and his other "friends" and "fiends", what you call it, seriously don't matter. All I've got to say is both my brother and his BF/F (Best Friends/Fiends hahaha) have contributed to the immense unhappiness and anger that have accumulated over this short period.

Betrayal, gossip, lack of trustworthiness, insensitivity, and most importantly, the RELUCTANCE to be FORTHCOMING and HONEST among the CCA "elite" members have led to the current miserable state of politics in the CCA.

I've heard the possibility of a coup to overthrow the current elite, and it seems the elite have planned to meet up with the revolutionaries to discuss the possibility of cooperating, or at the very least, a detente perhaps?

I've never stopped believing in the phrase that it takes 2 hands to clap. In the case of my brother's, both parties, elite and revolutionaries, have did some things that made the other party unhappy. But the point that IRKED me really, even to the point of disappointment, was the fact that none stood up to address these issues when they were fresh. So now, old scars have opened new wounds as the politics get mirky with betrayal and fury.

What hit me really, to blog when i rarely blog, was the idea of the BF/F. About labelling a person your "friend" and "fiend". I love my brother, although i barely tell him that hahaha and it pained me to see him going through what i myself went through a decade ago (gawd i feel old). What his experience reminded again was the need for SMART choices over who we entrust our deepest secrets with. I've seen in the case of others, how temporary feelings of "trust" and "bond" have misled one to pour out his soul to a BF/F, unaware of the impending wrath one would incur when the rest of the world (lets call them paparazzi and gossipers) gets wind of it through the BF/F.

All hail the BF/F, assuming my hypothesis stays true, the BF/F is probably safest of all. The BF/F is like a news publishing company, you feed the tabloids to the rest of the gossip- hungry world, only getting into real trouble when the facts are wrong, or... when you disclose news that are not meant for the public eye. Yet many a time, the less discerning public give no thought to the workings of the press or BF/F.

Who should we fear the most?

Who should we trust?

Who should we label enemies, and friends?

Why should there be a need to closely categorize when in fact there might be a larger force uncontrollable to us that is shaping the workings of a friendship?

And so here's a post dedicated to my brother especially (: dear bro, its not hard to find friends along in life, but its not easy to find friends that will stick by you and stab you in the front. Don't hesitate to humble yourself when you are wrong, because that is a value often forgotten but much needed in dealing with matters concerning another. Remember the teachings of the Buddha and conduct your body, speech and mind with compassion and wisdom. Anger never solves the problem, and more often than not, it becomes the problem. Speak with awareness of the consequences, and remember--- "Emptiness-- what is ego?" (:

And to my dearest babes reading this post, once again I am grateful for having earned your friendships, in full trust and knowledge that I can grow and improve as a person under your truthful advices and criticisms. I love you all and although we rarely meet, I feel your presence! hugs.

Photos

2008-06-14T02:21:00.003+08:00

Paris photos uploaded on flickr. Link here. I'd link it here directly but I'm too lazy to do it and I don't think I have the time. And of course this is only ~1% of all the photos I took.

A Different Message

2008-06-14T01:25:00.003+08:00

I miss you. Not prata, not chicken rice, not my family (although that one got a bit la). I miss the feeling that should I feel lost, there will be someone I can call. I miss having someone who can complete my sentences before I finish them (referring to she she, 'cause she's the only person who does that on a regular basis, heh). I miss, most of all, people who understand me.

Addendum: Not that I'm not having fun. I just can't stand some people here.

a msg from beks

2008-06-11T10:27:00.001+08:00

beks says she will be away on a church camp in batam from today to friday!!!! :D

My results

2008-06-06T22:29:00.003+08:00

Wanted to share my results cos they really are a huge improvement from last sem!!!! *grins* I got 1A, 3 B+ and 1 B-. So happy!!!

its a new beginning

2008-05-31T04:09:00.003+08:00

Sitting on the back of the lorry with the wind blowing in my face, I found the solution to the sticky little problem that I had earlier on.

Tomorrow's gna be a fresh new start.

Congratulate me girls, I think I've solved (or rather, on the way to solving) whatever that has been bothering me for quite some time. (:

): part 2

2008-05-30T02:43:00.003+08:00

This sucks. i tell myself not to care. but i cant help caring. i seem not affected. but deep down inside, its the opposite. i say i wna ignore him and not talk to him. but somehow, a part of me still hopes that he will talk to me. And he did. I tell myself that i should not ask him whats up and just ignore him. but i still cant help but feel... happy when just a simple 'hello' popped up on msn. I tell myself not to change or do anything for him, but slowly, gradually, i feel myself changing. and something tells me its cuz of him. In a small way, maybe i should be grateful that he appeared. He made me more confident and more willing to try new stuffs i guess (though i must say hall had a bigger role haha). sigh. this sucks. ohwells i am not gg to think abt it anymore.

I resolve to stop liking him ASAP.

wish me luck girls.

):

2008-05-29T18:28:00.001+08:00

it hurts to see your trust in someone betrayed.

Adieu!

2008-05-28T15:32:00.000+08:00

Ladies!

In eight hours, I should be on the plane to London, and from there, it’s just a hop, skip and jump to Paris. The thought of being in a foreign city, mostly alone, is both scary and exciting at the same time.

I’ll try to take pictures and update regularly so you know that I’m still alive (heh). And just to let you know, yours truly is so lazy she hasn’t planned her itinerary, so wherever she goes will be on a day-to-day basis.

Then on the first day of the new month, it’s Lyon, the (supposedly) gastronomic capital of France. And that’s when the real fun starts. (And everything is planned for me so I don’t have to rack my brains.)

Oh, and NUS peeps, good luck for friday.

JC

P.S. My home connection is still dead. Urgh.

Goodbye My Lover

2008-05-27T23:52:00.003+08:00

hey girls, just wanna share with y'all the rush of emotions i felt just a moment ago when i was listening to the radio. Muttons at midnight (Perfect 10) was on, I just hung up with angchor as he was exhausted after a whole day of work and socializing with guests.

I remotely recalled myself feeling an ironic mix of disappointment and understanding towards his fatigue. Dedication time was on at that moment and then I heard Muttons (the DJs) reading out an sms written by a guy dedicating James Blunt's "Goodbye My Lover" to his girlfriend.

Before I went,"Oh another messy breakup" , the next moment the Muttons read out the reason for the dedication:

The boy was dedicating "Goodbye My Lover" to his girlfriend that just, died of cancer.

Dont ask me why I felt the heartbreak for him, but I bet its not even half as painful as what he was experiencing now. I can only imagine how painful it is to lose someone that you loved, be it your lover, parents or close friend. I can only imagine,... that the pain is big enough to kill you, to suffocate you, to drown you. My pain was nothing.

For now, I mourn and tear for this loving boyfriend, the Szechuan victims, the Myanmar lost lives, and for the silent pleas that will never be heard.

Bless them.

Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well,

I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.[x2]

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry,

I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you,

I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.[x2]

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.

In mine when I'm asleep.

And I will bare my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Re: Where's Your Heart?

2008-05-23T13:28:00.006+08:00

Someone has responded to the video Renny posted in the greatest way ever. It made me cry over and over again, and it is very, very good (and admirable) that the maker of this film used this as a rebuttal to that horrendously cruel girl.

Title: 对"辽宁女4分40秒狂骂四川灾区人民"最严厉回击

Direct Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtBUgC0XN0k

Below is a commentary of the video I strongly agree with:

By yourvision2000:

感谢作者以友善的态度和积极的方式来回应那位无知的少女！

我得承认在开始看到那段视频的时候，我真的有抽她两嘴巴的冲动！但是之后听了更多网友以牙还牙对她的回骂，我却陷入沉思......

我们是否应该用比她更卑劣的言语去捍卫我们抗震救灾的伟大意义呢？或者说采用这种极端报复式的方法是否真的可以慰藉那些已经被中伤的灾区人民的心灵？以毒攻毒也许有表面的实效，让我们听过后有解气解恨的畅快感，但是这个行为本身却没有丝毫意义，不管它的初衷被认为是多么纯粹和貌似公义。

二十一岁的年龄原本应该可以自己承受起最起码的社会使命和人生责任，但我们很清楚的看到，这一切在这位沈阳女孩的身上已经完完全全的失落了！

这是她个人的悲哀，也许也是她父母的悲哀，但不应该成为我们更多人的悲哀！因为我相信每个心系灾区的中国人都具备比她更高尚的人格情操。她的行为应该受到全社会舆论的谴责和纠正，但却不应该是人身攻击式的辱骂和恐吓，因为心系灾区的我们比她更懂得什么是爱，什么是人间至情。

Where's your heart?

2008-05-23T00:06:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD.

WATCH THIS. you will never believe that there are people who've lost more than just a bit of a sensitive chip in their character.

Video on the Sichuan earthquake disaster by a China girl:

here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J9Bf-lM9Oe4

a MUSTWATCH. you will FLIP.

The vengeance of the 哭腔 monster and other unimportant things

2008-05-22T11:39:00.005+08:00

These 3 months is giving me a reasonable amt of time to improve in terms of musicianship and i wanna share it with you girls!

To-do-list:

1. Classical Piano lessons

2. Jazz Piano lessons

3. Set up my music workstation again (vista couldn't support my previous version of the workstation)

4. Take up voice lessons formally

I went for recording yesterday to sing in what i have not sang since my gigs -- in CHINESE. I was doing it as a favour for KeithPoon who was doing a demo at yellowbox studios. And from what i gathered and experienced in the studio from the engineers as well as keith, i couldn't really emote the song very well.

Well, i have a few hypothesis at hand:

1. Singing in Chinese is a bit different from English.

well, u might disagree (the engineer did) but here's my argument. Really, I think its nothing to do with the nature of the language itself, but rather that I have been used to emoting myself (all my originals are in english yes) in English and all my recording jobs were sung in english (save the most recent one which i had to imitate children singing 世上只有妈妈好). I think the words that i can relate to are in english nowadays, so although chinese lyrics i can understand, they're less... relatable in that sense? Not sure if i'm doing myself justice in this explanation but hahahhaha ohwells! But I have to agree that during the initial stages of recording, I was VERY conscious of my pronunciation (and vibrato, see point 3).

2. The phrasing for English is different from Chinese

And thats why some emotions can be better expressed when u phrase it in a different way. Like... say "你转身后的气氛" (copyrights under 竹子). Maybe I would sing this phrase and accent the 气氛 at the end. But for Chinese singing, 转身后的 would be more accented. Just an example lah, cuz this was what happened XD So when i accented 气氛, it didn't sit well with the producer and engineer.

3. My vibrato/ 抖音 too much

hahaha. i NEVER, absolutely NEVER thought I would actually hear such comments at all! cuz the above 2 points about being expressive in a song is always a common in the studio, songs need emotions, so thats a must and i might've lacked that when i sang in chinese. But I was actually quite surprised that my vibrato was the MAIN CHALLENGE for the recording. I "dou" too much already! hahahahhaha. In retrospect, despite feeling apologetic that my inner singing deficiencies slowed down the recording, its quite funny as it dug up quite a few memories of my childhood! I remember singing when i was young and getting freaked out by my vibrato and i stopped doing it until a started classical singing where vibrato made songs sound better! hahahahahah. But i felt sorry for the 2 engineers and keithpoon cuz i struggled alot muffling (KILLING) my vibrato for this song and thus wasting a lot of time. So here I am consciously putting the vibrato out of the singing, and doing many retakes cuz my awareness in singing (unfortunately) killed the emotions i was supposed to express in the song (about breakup).

4. I never really did 哭腔 before as a performer cuz english songs dont really have much of it

Really damn cool experience on this one cuz I thought making these noises were quite funny/embarassing/sick/_______ (anything negative). It was really funny cuz they asked me to make some of this sounds and i did one (note: the main intention was really to show my disagreement and my lack of ability to make a nice one) and they were like 'yes this is what we want'. so yes! my virgin experience with the 哭腔 monster, you read.

I tried you know!

And so yes, this ends my really random blog post about a demo recording on wednesday afternoon. But a learning experience because this above 4 points have motivated me to get VOICE LESSONS! hahahaha. and hopefully my vocal deficiencies can be salvaged, if its not too late.

BIRDDDD

2008-05-19T17:26:00.003+08:00

IM BACKKK hahaha and up and bouncing! hahaha i must say in a space of 4 days really alot alot alot happened, and yupp renny i get what you're saying! i had a really heart to heart convo with him on friday and today, and i really found out so much more about him then i ever did.. spent the weekend organizing my thoughts, and at the bottom of it all, i think despite all the disappointing things that i found out, i still like him after all. i place my trust in him, that all these is just a phase he is gg thru. he kind of gave me an explanation for some of the stuff he did lah, and call me stupid or what, i am gg to accept his explanation. hahahha. at the end of the day i believe that he is still the same person that i've always known him to be! (: hahah that was what i told him today lah. haha and even though its pretty obvious that he alr has someone in mind, but i guess i just wna be there for him when he needs someone to talk to! haha for now, im not gna think abt whether i like him or not, but focus on bringing our friendship to another level? hahahhaha i also dno lahhh. hahaha i guess i feel more at ease with my self now, not completely, but enough to let me focus on my work in hall! (:

and OMGGGG can u believe it! when i got back to hall today. i. found. a. BIRD. in my ROOM. omgggggggg. ALIVE SUMMORE. shitted all over my window sill and floor summore. OMGGGGGGGGGGG. i dno to say i poor thing or the bird poor thing. i guess would be the bird lah. the guy who helped me get the bird out said the bird was alr quite weak. stuck in my room for dno how many days. omgggggggggg rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :/

i m confused.

2008-05-15T16:02:00.003+08:00

nice song, and i think it suits my current emo mood.

the MV is super nice lah omgg i absolutely love it haha. the songs called 'the way you make me feel' by STEPS.

lyrics (:

It's the things that you do,
So physical,
It's the things that you say,
So flammable,
You know I can't resist,
Boy it's such a shame,
Do you belong to another,
I don't wanna hurt nobody,
But my heart just can't hold back,

It's the Way You Make Me Feel,
The way that you make me feel,
Spinning my world around,
Tell me how can I walk away,
I don't care what they say,
I'm loving you anyway,
It's the way you make me feel

I'm going to make you mine,
It's not impossible,
Got t9o let you know,
I'm irresistible,
Baby can't you see,
You're the one for me,
But you belong to another,
I don't wanna hurt nobody,
But my heart just can't hold back,

It's the Way You Make Me Feel,
The way that you make me feel,
Spinning my world around,
Tell me how can I walk away,
I don't care what they say,
I'm loving you anyway,
It's the way you make me feel

When I look into your eyes,
Everytime you smile at me,
Oh I go weak inside,
Baby I just can't hide my love,

It's the Way You Make Me Feel,
The way that you make me feel,
Spinning my world around,
Tell me how can I walk away,
I don't care what they say,
I'm loving you anyway,
It's the way you make me feel

havent emo-ed so badly such that i couldn function in a long long time. i hope it'd never have to happen again. im usually able to keep my emotions in check and function as per normal, but somehow this incident affected me quite badly i guess. it was a mixture of disappointment and confusion. i no longer know what i want. even though what i saw wasn much, but in a way i guess it affected how i saw him. a chat with my friend bout him till 6am revealed much more about him than i thought i knew, yet at the same time, i m glad i found someone who shares the same sentiments as me - that he is just a puzzle. an unsolvable one at that. i thought i had more or less prepared myself for what im gna see at zouk yesterday, but somehow seeing and hearing is different i guess. Honestly speaking he didn do much lah. it was just normal behaviour actually, but i didn really like the feeling/image that he was giving out. haha maybe im thinking too much. my friend said it was just 'culture shock'. in a way i still dno what i want i guess.. pretty much confused now. haha. but oh wells. i'll get over it! dont worry guys. anyone who wants the full story just gimme a call yea. but dont worry pple, i'm much stronger than before, so i'll get over it! (:

Are you Happy?

2008-05-14T11:54:00.004+08:00

Hello my friend,

I'm calling you today!

Because I heard that you're feeling blue...

And running away alone, facing it alone.

Why?

Why...

Are you crying alone?

Give me your hand...

Trust me when i say...

We do love you!

And we won't let you walk alone.

GGXX

2008-05-14T02:51:00.003+08:00

omgggggg i so feel like killing myself now. my msn nick ' you bring back memories and a whole lot more that i dont wna deal with' has gotten my cute guy's curiosity. omgg for the FIRST TIME EVER, hes asking me why is my nick so emo. so i told him lah, like my block head always emo, so this was just one of his quotes and tt we put it up just to disturb him. then he went 'aiya dunno you lah.. dunwan say nvm la' ok i know its qt a errmm fuyan ans but sigh. it was kinda the best i could think of under circumstances (under my blockheads approval of using him as an excuse). haha so after his 'i obviously dont buy your crap ans' reponse, i told him lah. like ok lah my block head always emo, but just nice this quote happens to be applicable to me. then he ask me whys it applicable to me. so i told him ' u get me drunk then see if can get it out of me lo' which will nv happen, cuz i wont even go near him when he is with alcohol (dangerous sia). yeah so i told him to guess. then he went love problems ah. hahah then i changed topic. and finally hes offline. PHEW. omggggg. i feel like banging my head on the wall eh. omggg in a way like its the correct person to ask me abt it, but i cant tell him anything! ironic huh. sigghh. okayss i shall stop thinking abt this. aha this sucksss. me shall not think abt it. sigh see you guys soon. (:

MY GRADES SUCK!!!

2008-05-13T22:57:00.003+08:00

ARGH. I CAN'T BELEIVE IT. MY GPA THIS SEM IS 2 PT SOMETHING! ARGH ARGH ARGH! DRAGGED MY CUMULATIVE GPA DOWN BY SO MUCH! THE SUBS I TOT I'LL DO WELL IN DIDN'T DO AS WELL. AND THE ONES I KNEW I'D DO BADLY IN.. WELL I DIDN'T EXPECT IT TO BE THAT BAD. I GOT ONE C-! I VOW THAT NEVER IN MY LIFE WILL I EVER GET A C- AGAIN. EVER AGAIN.

i guess i've been pretty complacent this sem. reflecting on this sem i know i put in significantly less effort than i did for the first sem. and i guess its reflected in the grades. i guess i only have myself to blame. n it certainly didnt help that i cldn't do much last min revision given the chaos at home during that period. well. at least my cumulative gpa is still a 3. hasn't dipped below 3 yet. guess i'll have to work hard in subsequent sems to pull my grades up.

I want to eat ice cream!! cheer myself up. GRRRR

Back!!!!

2008-05-13T18:22:00.002+08:00

hi hi I am back!!! Sorry for staying away for so long....
Anyways I just went shopping at Anchorpoint!!! It is opposite the Queenstown Ikea. And it has quite a number of factory outlet stores leh!!!! lol I bought a new pair of shoes (Charles and Keith) :)

Oh ya! Can give me some suggestion on wat I can learn during the holidays?

My Darling Little Girlfriend

2008-05-09T03:00:00.002+08:00

Below is my darling little girlfriend, whom all of you should know of by now. XD She is sooooo cute and she loves to stick to me. On the eve of my last paper, she came to Singapore for treatment from Batam, because she fell under the Hand Food Mouth Disease. Tons of rashes all over and in her mouth too. RAWR~ So poor thing... T__T

Luckily her condition improved drastically after one dose of medication from a local doctor. Goes to show how competent our doctors are (or rather, how incompetent the doctors in Batam are). I'm just glad that she's okay now. ^_^

(This picture was taken during my CNY trip to Malaysia this year. It was the night with all the fireworks, by the way. We celebrated her 8th birthday. ^_^ )

Also, on the morning of my final paper, my little girlfriend came to hug and bug me again. I could only pay her little attention because of the need to study, and so she came and gave this to me as a good luck gift. Oh my God, she is soooooo sweet and cute and lovable!! I love her to bits!! SO TOUCHED~~ T___T 到现在都还舍不得开来吃~

Throughout the time I was studying, she would come and hug my thigh, look at me, then wander off fer a few seconds, then come back and hug my thigh again, so on and so forth... X3 How can she be so cute? It's sinful to be so cute! XD LOVE HER LA!!!

/love proclaimation

XD

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Stuck in the Middle

2008-05-06T20:57:00.003+08:00

Not fun, but in this case brings a different perspective.

Open Ranting

2008-05-06T03:56:00.000+08:00

Dear Mich Lim,

we agreed weeks ago, a few days after we last went out together to PS, that we would meet up fer another round of arcade plus get-together the day after our exams (May 7), and our exams happen to end on the same day. (Tuesday, May 6)

And last night when I talked to you asking what time you would like to meet, it seems you clearly forgot that we have established such a spoken agreement of a meeting. What's worse, you're going arcade with another friend right after your exam.

The more I think about it, the more dissatisfied I am. Go ahead and club on Wednesday night. Enjoy arcade with your other friend.

My Lil Kitten the irony: Metta

2008-05-02T20:10:00.001+08:00

Look. so cute right? my sleeping kitten.

and guess what he did today?

HE PEE-ED UNDER MY BED.

Disclaimer for previous post!

2008-04-28T21:05:00.001+08:00

OMG it sounds like i've got problems with AC! hahahahhahaha! i assure you, this has NOTHING to do with Mr. Ang, and I'm still very much appreciating him in my life now, as how i appreciate you all :)

lovelove,
renny

obligations

2008-04-28T20:56:00.003+08:00

hey dearies, i'm here for a ranting session, although i wont put up names and tell the story. if you wanna know, just ask next time u see me alright?

anyway, some things have been happening for quite a while now that has led me to feel this way that (even more strongly) -- people are not what we think they are. people could've trusted each other to quite a large extent, but as the relationship starts reaping less benefits, it becomes stagnant. Or even worse, it becomes obligatory, just for the sake of keeping it going, because you cannot leave it by virtue of your relationship.

There were times (i swear) that I thought of giving it up, but the means to the end, really, isn't worth the effort. There have been people who've told me long time ago to be careful, but I chose to remain neutral. Even now, I can admit that I'm still neutral. It's just that, it gets tiring trying to return obligatory acts to keep it up, just because i can't NOT just give it up.

and so here ends my very obscure and totally ridiculous post. hahaha.

heh heh

2008-04-22T22:02:00.001+08:00

taking a break from studying, i did this! 87 words

Speed test

wahahah i feel prooooooooooooo :D